This is one of the first images I took deliberately out of focus. I went out numerous times to walk the streets of the rather dull suburbishcity in which I lived, with a camera in hand. I usually came back empty handed. I could see nothing. Then one day as I was walking up the main street facing the sunset I got an idea to go out of focus.
What a relief – suddenly I felt an interest arising in me – I was seeing so many new things. An overflow of disassociated details literally blurred into a whole that made sense. It changed from something I could not understand to something I could sense and experience. It shifted from my thinking mind into a realm of imagination.
The images below were taken as a preparation for an improvised performance. The performance was part of an art-exhibition opening event that celebrated the theme of ‘city’. I had an idea to prepare visual materials, based on that theme, that we could then project during the performance to establish a landscape. I am not naturally curious or fond of city landscapes so I was faced with a challenge.
These images were taken during two excursions. One was close to home – in a rural-village landscape. The other was in ‘the big city’ Tel-Aviv. Again I found myself drifting towards the out-of-focus perspective. We did not use the images in the performance – and they have never been displayed. Until now.
Some mornings, like today, I start the day by sitting in the garden with a drink and a book. when I do this I feel I set a healthy rhythm for my day, that it down-plays any unnecessary ambitions. This morning as I leaned forward to get up from the chair I noticed a shift.
My mind was already moving towards the next activities – which be called ‘work’. What caught my attention was a tension – a kind of anxiety that was not there while I was reading. I seemed to be making a move from a concept of ‘leisure’ to a concept of ‘work’. I felt I was taking on a burden. I also realized that this was an unnecessary effort – that I could bring qualities of ‘liesure’ into ‘work’. I would then enjoy the work, I would take my time doing it and would be probably do a better job.
The burden is an expression of incorrect effort – there is no need for it. It reflects habits that have formed over a long time. It reflects fears and expectations. It is hidden and subtly affecting my mind. I was able to catch in in a subtle shift in the weight of my body. It happened so fast that the mind could not get in the way – and I learned something new about myself.
Since I released the post on VC & Philanthropy I have encountered some interesting links:
I will update this post as I find more interesting reading and insights