Category: Fragments
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Celebration and … the Sacred?
Maija asked me recently about my relationship with celebrating … and I am generally uncomfortable around celebration. Today I encountered these two stories from Rick Rubin, a master of delicacy. The first story sets the context for the second story and the second story (wait for it after the song and forgive the clumsy but…
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Sensitive & Rigorous
During my recent month of back pain a massage therapist came over to help / torture me. I decided to give him a chance, to accept the pain and to express it … I was vocal. At one point he suggested (though I don’t remember his exact words) that I am very sensitive, that I…
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I am special
I am special that thought was with me when I got off the mat this morning it was softly present and in the background there was another softly present lurking thought that it is wrong to think so as if it is un-humble, arrogant, self centered I think that’s a remnant from an old and…
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Stop Crying
and in my dream I was sitting on the floor, unpacking my back pack my back was to the door but I felt him walking in behind me in an obvious way he walked past me and into the room he started singing and I, and others in the room, joined him I sang fully,…
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Three Day Reset
There seems to be a recurring pattern in a kind of energy cycle that I occassionaly to through. The day before yesterday a heaviness and boredom set in me. I felt tired and unmotivated to do anything … to be. I didn’te’t fight it. I stayed with it and witnessed it … I waited to…
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From hurt to sick
After leaving abruptly Andreea went into a series of very hectic and busy days … 3 consecutive births that aligned perfectly one after another but left her without sleep for 3 or 4 days. I was slowly recollecting myself … and for the most part getting better Then the day before yesterday, just past 13:00…
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Something hurt
Andreea left abruptly from her last visit (last weekend) … she was called to a birth. It wasn’t just how she left, but also how she was here. When she got on the bus, we were both choked by tears … we were both hurting. Something in me was hurt during that last visit. The…
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Illegal, Unfair, Normal
Law as a social framework (including legislative, judicial, enforcement, punishment and public perception aspects) seems to be deteriorating … and I believe that’s a good thing. I believe the law, at its best (a rare combination of legislation & implementation) provides, at best, mediocre social norms. Typically it seems to describe the lowest level of…
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Inner Specifity
Focusing on what you wear, where you are in the room, what your posture looks like … outer specifity enslaves. Focusing on how you breathe, bhavana, the relationship between breath & movement & intentions … inner specifity frees.
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Conspiracy Theories
Since I have become attentive to “caring about the earth” I have encountered numerous conspiracy theories that explain what is by describing a secretive elite that is manipulating the workings of the planet. I meet them with a mix of curiosity, anxiety and doubt. They have an appeal and, at the same time, they feel…
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Knowledge & Experience
Is there is a kind of paradoxical relationship between knowledge and experience? Something along the lines of spirit & matter? My experiences bring me knowledge. My experiences also bring me knowledge that all knowledge from experience is tainted. This knowledge-by-experience may be close (and moving closer) towards true knowledge. Yet this knowledge-by-experience also seems to…
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Suffering
What if in the eyes of future history our elaborate knowledge musings on “suffering” turn out to be nothing more then a long lasting fashion fad? What if it turns out that suffering is an expression of our conscious misaslignment with the natural world around us? What if suffering was a concept we invented to…