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My relationship with the second (recent) Orchard Labs project was and remains a mystery. One of the ideas that came up when I talked about this with Shahar was a change in my ‘formal role’. I thought of trying out a documentary role – it seemed to give me a sense of retreat. I was feeling anxious about creating at the time (though we were on a break). Actually I think I was scared of repeating myself. The documentary/journalistic role seemed to give me a wider view of the project and allowed me to step back.

Of course this agreement, though a comforting entry point, didn’t hold out for long. When you gotta go you gotta go – and of course there were moments where I completely digressed from my ‘documentary role’ back into a creative position – deep within the work. Though I had some insights and experiences around the ideas of these roles and my relationship to the work, but this is not the current topic.

This time I encountered a new creative experience. I found myself wanting to express myself bu without any attraction to the camera. The camera did not seem to be a relevant form of expression for me in these moments. I did find myself drawn to paper. I started playing around with drawing during the Tune project in Barcelona. I really had an urge to do this. It was then that I first became familiar with textures and qualities of drawing. During the Orchard Labs I found comfort in drawing numerous times.