“The nagual is the part of us which we do not deal with at all ... At the time of birth, and for a while after, we are all nagual. We sense, then that in order to function we need a counterpart to what we have. The tonal is missing and that gives us, from the very beginning, a feeling of incompleteness. Then the tonal starts to develop and it becomes utterly important to our functioning, so important that it opaques the shine of the nagual, it overwhelms it. From the moment we become all tonal we do nothing else but to increment that old feeling of incompleteness which accompanies us from the moment of our birth and whichs tells us constantly that there is another part to give us completeness”
Carlos Castaneda

Tales of Power

I looked at the phone

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There is heaviness in the air today. I spend most of the day indoors. Lit the rocket stove for the first time.

Its afternoon … cook dinner or get on the mat? I don’t know.

I look at the phone. Walk outside to pee. Come back inside the phone rings.

It’s Andreea, away attending births.

A couple have canceled last minute. Not OK. Other births were refused, loss of income. It isn’t the first time.

We have come this far carried by my financial beliefs. Now we are being carried by hers.

She believes in soft. She is opening to abundance.

She thinks I am angry. I’m not. I’m frustrated. Is this how people value soft? Pretty expensive.

It isn’t easy letting go, stepping back, letting her step forward. I’m getting better … but need to get even better.

Anyways, I am left with a dose of frustration. Heaviness & frustration are not a good recipe to carry on to the mat. I am not ready for a practice.

So cooking dinner it is.

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